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fatigued when writing a spell

Rituals….kill the magic

Its Sunday morning, I have my decaff coffee, watching Sunday Brunch, realizing this is something I do pretty much every Sunday, it’s not even something I think about it.

Routine and rituals tend to be embedded in our lives, and the occult fields are not any different, if anything rituals are something that’s highly prized in this world. Tarot readers often will read using the same spreads, cutting the cards the same way each time. Mediums tend to prepare the same way when they are going on stage or even for a one on one client reading, their prayer is something that’s often well worn. Witches have many different ceremonies, spells require apparatus that differ depending on the type of spell, but the actions are often the same.

Rarely do we review these rituals, they become another thing we do automatically just as we shower in the morning and brush our teeth. Even our mindfulness can become a routine.

The reason that we tend to start any spiritual practice is that we want to WAKE UP, we want to stop sleepwalking in our life and smell the roses, watch the sunrise, and gaze at the moon. We want to feel alive, to transcend our mundane life and contact something that’s more than us, that’s greater, that’s infinite. However, this practice can become what we are trying to get away from, we can start going on autopilot, and mindfulness can even become a routine, the very thing it’s meant to guard against. We stay in a rut, a spiritual rut, but a stuck groove nonetheless.

We end up seeing what we want to see, the same roses, the same sunrise, everything that excited us when we started, becomes dull, we know it’s magical, but we no longer feel it.

We get spiritual fatigue.

fatigued when writing a spell

We still go through the motions, we even still believe we are enthralled, but its just an illusion we have been working to see through, the awareness we have been working towards is elusive.

Rituals maybe the cornerstone of many practices, but it doesn’t mean that we should not shake these up, make a few tweaks here and there, improvements that move us forward.

Being mindful applies to all our lives, even our spiritual practice, if you do something without thinking about it, it’s time to make a change, to shake things up. If even the idea of making a change gives you chills, then this is exactly what you need to do.

So think about what you do each day, everything, do something different each day and see how this changes your perspective, how it can bring back the magic.

You are not the person you were last year, so why do the same practices you did last year? change them to reflect the person you are now, not the person you were.

So do something different today.

 

Viral scares me shitless

Go visible, or go home!

Backroom, or front of house?

A comment on a group I created popped into my head this morning, how starting a business is hard for us ‘backroom’ people. Now I have no problem meeting people, I can network with the best of them, have been in customer facing positions for years, but this isn’t really the same thing when you are starting your business. Visibility takes on a new meaning nowadays, it’s about being seen online, being ‘outthere’, having a social media presence isn’t just about what you write, but people want to see you, they want to know what you look like.

Personality is what people need to see, they aren’t so much buying your expertise, but the experience which you can give them, and they are looking for someone they can relate to, someone they feel inspired by.

Are you my muse?

game over guru
game over guru!

Years ago people were looking for a guru, looking for someone who was going to tell them how to live their life, they wanted a structure, to be told what to do, a god-like figure to save them. Now people are more focused on finding someone who they can be inspired by, not just the persons business but them as a person.

It’s not just about what they do, people are wanting to buy a lifestyle

People want to join a tribe, they want to be part of something, not just following a person, feeling like they are part of a team, changing together, evolving together.

Perfection isn’t what people want.

People are no longer looking for the person who is impeccable, people are looking for someone that is pure in intention but are happy to see their flaws, to see they are still a work in process, they may lead the tribe but they are by no means above them, looking down.

I am a sociable person, happy to talk to anyone, always the centre of a party, I am also very private about my personal life. so my main issue with being visible isn’t that I have to talk , I have way too much Leo in my chart to not like being on centre stage, the main issue I have is that you have no control online, once it’s out there it can be distorted, and at worse made viral.

Viral content is the holy grail for many, many ‘personalities’ want this to make their name because they need it, and it’s not always backed up with any substance.

Viral scares me shitless
Going viral scares me shitless

Nowadays even small deeds , good or bad can be recorded and posted, even if you are not posting it yourself, a good Samaritan takes a picture or a film and puts it out there. This can have its own legs, it can become a monster, I am not just talking about the negative side, positive deeds also don’t go unpunished, and lives can be put under a microscope by a well-meaning person who posts it.

I don’t like that microscope, maybe it’s in part an issue with control which might be the reason for the zombie dream (see that post here). Many people would love a moment of fame, me I prefer not to, I don’t mind being a big fish in a little pond, a party, an event, but out of the worldwide web….that’s another story, a scary story. It puts me off some small good deeds, lest someone has a smart phone and I find myself on the 5 o’clock news on a slow news day.

The issue is, to make the changes I want in the world, I have to come out, I have to be seen, I have to share the knowledge.

So here lies the dilemma.

To be a game changer, to effect real change in the sphere I am passionate about (relationships & Mediumship), I need to bite the bullet, to suck it up.

So I am going to have to put myself out there, driven by the desire to share my knowledge, to help others, leaving a positive footprint in the world. So again, another mindset change….

So this is my new challenge, and yes I will bring you along.

Changed my mindset, turned a corner!

I have been trying to unravel a puzzle, a message that has frustrated me, made me angry, I have been venting to friends. I took time out, stepped back, watched a few movies, occasionally my mind drifted to the problem but I kept trying to move it back what I was watching.

So today I still had the question in my mind, but I was still no nearer the solution but had a good nights sleep which was a good thing. So I got on with my day, and then it struck

Silently.

There it was, a seed, but after inspection it turned out to be a breadcrumb, I followed them slowly at first not knowing where I was being lead. The original crumb was also a bit of a ‘red herring’, but it lead towards the yellow brick road (yep all about colours today).

The revelation?light-bulb-revelation

My mind needed to be changed, my mindset was stuck, that’s what had been holding me back, and how did I not see this before?

Well am not entirely 100% sure that is the final destination, I will find out in a few days when things start to move forward, the spoke in the wheel being removed the cogs start turning and I start to see results. I have felt the energy change, I know it’s important, I know I have turned a corner, my mind has moved.

Often this is the last thing that changes, and this is the most important step, because if we don’t do this we remain in the past, we might be trying to look at the future, or be present, but we can’t do the final move, make the final step.

So my mindset has changed, this took a long time, but I felt the shift and now I can see more possibilities

Zombies attacked me

Are you ‘The Walking Dead’?

fighting zombies
a zombie apocalypse

I have a zombie dream, when this happens I wake up and know exactly what the issue is……my world is changing, life as I know it is ending and this is scary. Although I am a heavily fixed sign person, I pride myself my new found flexibility, this is a reminder that deep down it’s still a struggle.

We all know how our dreams can show us what is happening in our subconscious mind, what perhaps we aren’t ready, or willing to see or deal with. Dreams can unpack these issues, and you always know when this is happening because you wake up using going WTF!!

The Zombie dream is fairly common, it’s in the same category as the following:

  • Falling but never hitting the ground
  • Teeth falling out
  • Climbing steps but not ever getting anywhere
  • Being naked in public

These are all anxiety dreams, we often wake up freaked out, and If you had the teeth dream, you will first be checking that they are still there and not on your pillow!

These never happen just once, they tend to be re-occurring nightmares, sometimes they can last years, popping up at times of stress often returning night after night.

Each type of dream focuses on a particular type of anxiety and stress, I will write about the other variations another time, for now let’s focus on the undead.

Seeing zombies always highlights issues of CONTROL.

Are you the Zombie?

Dreaming you are the undead, is showing that you’re not fully ‘living’ in your waking life, you are detached emotionally and/or physically from people or situations, not fully engaged and present.

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Since this is about avoidance, simply to look at areas of your life that you are trying to run away from or simply ignore. Writing is a really good way of expressing your feelings, anything that’s mindful will help you engage in life again, and connect to the situation that is causing you to feel so removed.

Is your friend the Zombie?

If you are seeing someone you know that as a zombie, it talks about your relationship is hollow, so although they might still be physically present in your life, the connection itself, or rather your feelings for them have ‘died’.

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Is it time you review your relationships? In time we change, so do our relationships, and we can simply outgrow a person or situation. This dream is saying that you haven’t fully acknowledged this, and this is often all you need to do, let the connection fade and step back. If you like rituals, write a letter/email to your friend, explaining the reasons for not wanting them in your life, and thanking them for their past friendship….I don’t recommend you send it (if you write an email take care not to hit ‘send’!!) , dispose of it in a way you feel appropriate, I often rip it up or burn it.

Attacked by Zombies?

Are you the hero battling the hordes of the undead, but however many you kill, there are always more, when will it end? When will you kill them all? This is about your feelings of being overwhelmed by a situation that is (or feels like) beyond your control, feeling helpless.

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This dream is showing you are in a transition state, things in your life are ‘dying’ and endings we often find hard as we don’t always know what is coming in. We can’t control everything in our lives, and to really explore these feelings you need to work out what you can control and what you need to let go and surrender. Sometimes making a list will help us understand, and therefore let go, of worries about situations we can’t control, therefore we can focus on what we can change.

Have you had your zombie apocalypse yet? We have 8 months of Mars retrograding, mostly in Scorpio the home of our deepest darkest fears, and desires, so don’t be surprised if you have to fight your way through the undead at some point this year!

(Since any issues of control are fear based, this might be a great time to seek out a qualified therapist to talk through these fears in a safe and supportive environment.)

If you want learn more about how you can decode your dreams, follow Daimon_mediator on twitter, or like my Facebook page

What’s your number?

Numerology
I am a 9?

Nope this isn’t my shoe size!

That’s my year number (which is coincidentally the same as the universal year number).

Last year my was an 8 year, when reading about the 8 year I kept seeing the words ‘money’ and ‘power’ pop up, which I didn’t really understand how this would apply to me. I was at the time in a normal 9-5 job, however I had plans to start my own business but since I was finishing my re-training as a SQL DBA I was struggling to find the time to dedicate to the business. Money was also not as available so things were going slowly, but the desire to make changes to my working life got stronger, my wish was to have the resources to make this happen.
Be careful what you wish for ….

“This year you will feel the ambition stirring and a deep desire to better your financial conditions, so it is necessary to be very business-like, efficient, and practical all through the year. There is a big opportunity in the year for advancement and improvement of your standing and credit; but conditions are not going to be easy, for you will be called upon to exercise good judgement and business efficiency.”

Page 237 from Numerology –The Romance in Your Name, Juno Jordan

Fast forward a few months and there was a shock at work, my employers fortunes had taken a bit of a nose dive, and in July I was made redundant. The good thing about being a mystic is that you rarely are taken completely by surprise, if you pay attention to the signs and symbols along the way, you are led to the message…. the message was very clear, redundancy can lead to your dreams.
So my wish came true, I had both the funds, and the time to pursue my business ambitions.

“November tends to give a fresh start from an old stand-point”

Page 239 from Numerology –The Romance in Your Name, Juno Jordan
This was very apt, November is when things really became very real indeed, the website was finished which was the last piece of the puzzle that took more time then I had anticipated.
Life is full of cycles (like a universal washing machine), understanding these cycles can give us insight into our upcoming year. Now I am not an expert in numerology, but sometimes a little information is the heads up that we need to gain an advantage.

So what happened to you in 1971, 1980, 1989, 2007?

Why? Well those years were the same number as this year, they will shed some light into the focus of your year, and how to best use those energies. This demonstrates the 9 year cycle

Universal year grid
So, what does the 9 year have in store for me?

“Between January this year and January next you will realize a completion and also the fulfillment if some of your dreams. You are now closing a cycle of experience, one that you began 9 years ago, leading to a beginning and new start with next year.”

Page 239 from Numerology –The Romance in Your Name, Juno Jordan
For me, 2007 was the year I started exploring tarot which started me on a new path, to where I am now as a full time coach, mentor, and business owner.

“During the year you must be ready and willing to let go of the old and undesirable in your life to make way for the real and worthwhile.

” Page 239 from Numerology –The Romance in Your Name, Juno Jordan
Letting go is often a difficult, but the results are always worth the pain. In 2007 it was also the ending of a few family connections, some in part were related to my new life, the fact I was no longer in the mystical closet. I left behind some connections to allow me to move forward into my new life.

So what is your number? Find out here

Get in touch, I would love to hear your experiences with personal years!