It’s gone, I can’t get it back again….and it was good!
Ok, get your mind up from the gutter, it was a different metaphorical ‘cherry’. I have struggled with ‘coming out’ on social media (see here), I said that this was a challenge to myself which I am working through, so this radio show was a good start.
My friend has asked me to come onto her radio show awhile ago, I said yes not thinking it would be so soon, as distant idea. Well, it came round to Monday, and that invite turned into actually happening! I happily said yes and felt fine about it, calm and even excited, I could feel spirit round me giving me the support.
When I was writing notes I didn’t worry, up to a couple of hours before hand, It was fine, but then it hit me like a big rock, I am going on live streamed radio.
I AM GOING OUT LIVE….shit…SHIT!
I decided to focus on the full moon, and I sat just trying to stop those horrible thoughts that can cloud your mind about the fact I could choke, the words getting caught in my throat. I even started yawning, which was a disaster, how can I go out live with a yawn?
So I fell back into my safety net, I sat and called in the support of spirit, asked them to help me if I needed them, to gain any insight and focus for the show. I sat and felt calmness descend again, the yawning was helping me get rid of these fears, literally breathing them out. The feeling I was left with was…
You can’t fail…
Which is true, worst case scenario was that I talk nonsense, and if I did, I still did something new, something I needed to do, so the experience was important. This is what I love about mediumship, you always can get a pep talk from spirit, and it comes with a big energetic hug.
So I went back to my notes, normally being very Virgo I would have made copious notes, not having these would have in the past made me nervous, but not now. I know my stuff, this is what I have to remind myself, it’s all in my head regardless of the number of notes I have, it’s only a prop, I do my best work when thrown into the deep end, head first.
So when the radio show started I felt that same feeling again, that still feeling that I can’t fail.
So I went out live, I felt comfortable, in part to the support of the host, the lovely Astrid from Spiritual Alchemy. I am proud of myself, for accepting the opportunity, I thank my guides, my team for being there through the wobbles.
Right now I am reminded why I love my life, how when we open ourselves up, we create opportunities.
If you want to hear my first foray into radio, or simply want an alternative view of mediumship, then take a listen, here!
I would love to know what you think!